first entry!! yippee

timedate? 1/8/24, 12:48pm
weather? sunny..... as always
how we feelin: headache aauugh
what we doin: waiting for class to start...
watching anything: nuuuuuuoooope
listening 2 anything: nnnneeeeeuuuoope

hullo !!!! my first evah blog entry.... so excited hehe. idk what 2 write though.,,,

umm for starters im thinking about making an archer and/or slipknot fansite. which is a bit silly considering i havent even started the shrines...... so i should probably do that first. blah blah blah ummm i dont think im doing anything this weekend aand my teacher just got here. soooo. bai :3

NEW PUPPY!!!!! SQUEEEE

timedate? 8/8/24, 9:28am
weather? was rainning but just cloudy now :(
how we feelin: numb but like not in a bad way more neutral. content?
what we doin: in history class
watching anything: noooooo :3
listening 2 anything: history teacher?

we got a puppy yesterday !!!!! :D her names pepper. shes about 8 weeks or so :3 her mum is my aunts dog so.... cool! :D heres a phototoe:

photos a bit old but shes so cute eeeeeeee.... anyways i FINALLY got some reading done yesterday, read up to chapter 3 on earthlings and a bit of goodnight punpun.... yayyyyy :3 this weekend im gonna go to southport n see ghost in the shell 2: innocence in theatres!! because dendys awesome..... and im gonna try play room no. 9 on friday or so bc ive been putting it off since last term LOL.... anyways idk what else 2 say bai :3

ahahahaha. ouch

timedate? 27/8/24
weather? cloudy
how we feelin: blech not great
what we doin: in science class
watching anything: nnoooppppe
listening 2 anything: neeewoooo

TRIGGER WARNING !!!! for self harm

ummm i should probably preface this by saying I Have A Self Harm Problem. started when i was ten going strong until last year (when i got clean). was clean for a year before june/july when i relapsed. and holy fucking shit...... i hit styro. it was disgusting. i dont know. i feel nauseous even thinking about it and i nearly puked last night. i couldnt take care of it probably last night (did put bandaid + antiseptic, couldnt clean it or anything) because honest to god i couldnt even look at it. i dont know. i feel weird. absolutely no way in hell am i EVER going that deep again jfc i cannot handle it

anyways... for good news its my dads birthday today! :D hes gonna come visit (sydney --> gold coast where i am) and im excited i think :3 and my cousin-ish visited on sunday so i did like a whole human-interactiong thing.... pretty cool hehe

gold coast show :D

timedate? 2/9/24, 10:38am
weather? sunny
how we feelin: shitty
what we doin: english soon
watching anything: nooope
listening 2 anything: nooopppee

went to the gold coast show on saturday! i got a miffy showbag, miku figure + one of those popmart figures, annd a comic of the crow :-) havent watched the movie just yet so i should probably get on that... i also got a fuckton of cotton candy which was cool. whole thing was very very overstimulating so i was a bit bitchy but i also went on ghost train ride. which was ok plastic curtains touching my hair was more spooky.

on a shittier note i have like.... ten million things due. math draft was due last wednesday english draft is due today science is due wednesday and i dont even KNOW or care about design tech atm. whats with setting ten million things due on the same day wtf. and im missing out on connect day next week cause my mums fucking off to austria next wk for work stuff..... aaghhhhh. i have pride club today which is.. ok. ive missed the last few meetings so i kinda have to go to this one which like meh. hopefully i dont fail allllll my classes

yyayeyayy

timedate? 14/9/24, 2:11pm
weather? sunny/cloudy
how we feelin: ok!
what we doin: typin this :s
watching anything: nope... probably the crow later
listening 2 anything: faul by stone titan

hi again :D i havent been doing much tbh...... i had the last week of school off cus my mums in austria.... and my dads visiting from sydney tmrw so thats pretty cool :3 idk what we're gonna do since itll just be me + dad + little sister (mums fucked off and nan's gonna hang out w/ family for a bit) so... idk. maybe ill see what dendys got on.....

anyways. for website plans i HAVE to actually get started on the archer shrine.... then i may start a webring...... then if i ever get started on that ill do the slipknot fansite i was thinking about (the shrine is NOT ENOUGH !!!!!!!) then i think when ive done shrine n webring i reapply to the autistic webring because (didnt have enough pages last time cause im a dickhead) so timeline is shrine -> webring -> autists online -> fansite.....

S/H TW KIND OF!!!!! just a small little update

cut (deep one) is healing well... i havent cut since because that was TERRIFYING and also i run out of proper bandages and theres no way in hell im using normal bandaids for ts noooooo thank u.... im gonna grab like the wrap ones next time i go down to the store.. i might go down today but idk

im. so. BORED

timedate? 14/10/24, 11:51am
weather? cloudy
how we feelin: BORED!!!! VERY ANXIOUS!!!!!
what we doin: literally nothing
watching anything: NO!!!!!!!
listening 2 anything: stupid english class SCOFFF

hello. im BORED!!!!!!!! site updates are halted mildly as i am bored. and at the moment this is about as far as my css skillz go so idk maybe ill have to learn. i should probably finish the archer shrine but its such a pain in the ass and a good chunk of the content is dependent on me figuring out how to draw so this will be...... a while. i might take a little library trip and hangout there while i figure out how to code. so expect a layout revamp like next year probably.

i am also thinking a lot about. climate change. and i am FREAKED. was not thinking about it much before but yeah now its the only thing on my mind rn. and not having many friends yaknow thats not helping either. like theres people my age drinking and maybe doing the unmentionables and im kicking my legs writing a fucking blog entry ..... like idk the blogs pretty cool but what if i wanna be fucked up in a different way. maybe god cursed me with no social skills becus id be doing drugs and things if i had them. but now i cant do stuff (now or in the future) because i freak out about eye contact and talking to people. whhhaat. what do i do. therapy. maybe. that seems to be the solution.